I need help.

[Qwertygiy]

So last year, I moved. I lost contact with all my friends, and my old life fell to pieces. Buildism was my life, pretty literally.

Then earlier this year, one of my friends who I'd been especially close with, managed to get back in touch with me. We stayed in contact for a few months, and it was one of the best things that's happened to me in a long time.

Then about a month ago, I didn't get any messages for 2 weeks. I was worried, but not too concerned -- about this time last year, my Internet went out, as some of you might remember, though it's probably such a trivial a thing to fool myself into thinking you remember when you all probably don't.

Then, she got back in touch with me one day. Apparently, her mom isn't okay with her talking with me, even though we'd been real-life friends for more than 2 years, because I'm not their religion.

And today, she got back on, and we finally said goodbye, presumably forever, because I wouldn't be able to live with myself with her disobeying her parents. I'm a moderator here, you know how much I stick to rules and obeying those in charge.

I really don't know what to do now... My life's been like I was on a train, heading for a station that was straight ahead, and then the train suddenly took a switch around a corner and it's so sharp the train flung off the track, every single car, and the engine smashed apart and everything else got damaged. There was a long while where I just sat there, dazed, maybe getting up to straighten a few seats, but just unable to really do anything. Then she got back in touch, and helped me put a few of the cars back on the track, and even thinking ahead to putting the engine back on and maybe going somewhere. I'd fully realized that I'm never going to get to that station, at least not anywhere on time, but maybe I'll be able to get there or somewhere close soon. Then she told me that her mom didn't want her talking to me, and suddenly I've lost all motivation for getting the rest of the cars back up there. I even thought a bit about taking a sledgehammer to the engine -- what's the use in trying to get that piece of junk back together? I'll go walk somewhere else, and be alone...

Then she came back, and I thought it was all fixed, but it wasn't...

Now I have no idea what to do. I need help. I need things to do, suggestions for cheering up, getting myself out of this train wreck and back on track to somewhere, anywhere.

Help.

[Franco30557]

Ever tried making new friends?

[Qwertygiy]

Yes. There's a homeschooled program at my library system, and I have one or two people there I suppose I could call friends. That's actually pretty much how we had met in the first place; the library up where I used to be. But it's so different -- two boys who are as internet-junky as you are (one of them actually says derp. Come on, you never say derp!) just isn't the same as a sharp-witty, Disney-addicted friend you've had for 2 of the best years of your life. If she hadn't come back this February, I probably would be fine -- or at least, still in the same old train wreck. But having to deal with this... It's like someone died, only worse. And I've had to deal with deaths before.

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[Franco30557]

That sucks...When I moved, we just had to go to a different town, I left all my friends behind. Then when I got to High School, I saw most of my friends I left back in the same school as me! =D

I wish something like that could happen to you.

[Qwertygiy]

200+ miles apart... it ain't happening. I have moved once before, and if I went to school it'd probably be the same story. It was only a couple of miles, and I'm still not entirely sure why the town I moved to was seperate from the one I moved from.

[Franco30557]

Have you got friends around your neighborhood, have you got other friends you can contact?

[Ashely]

The good news is you're still young and let me tell you something Im sure your a very handsome young man. There are plenty of fish in the sea and I know she's your friend but school is still in session meet some friends there. Its not hard.

[Qwertygiy]

My neighborhood consists of a factory. Some densely-packed trees. A road under construction. A man a bit older than my dad who has a huge dog named Booger.

And as I thought I said in the OP, I've lost all contact with everyone else. I didn't really have that many in the first place. I've been so outgoing on Buildism because it's the only place I can... I've always been shy and a bit awkward in real life, I don't have much initiative, and being homeschooled I don't really get out to meet anyone.

Even my meeting her was a string of accidents that really shouldn't have happened, caused mainly by my shyness and awkwardness in signing up for a class in Microsoft Excel at the library, and I gave up the last 2 open seats I was going to get one of to a couple that got there right as I found out where it was. Then the library contacted me about the teen board with my dad's phone and email number.

And it's not like she was my girlfriend or anything; just one of the few friends I've ever had, and one of the closest.

[Franco30557]

The good news is you're still young and let me tell you something Im sure your a very handsome young man. There are plenty of fish in the sea and I know she's your friend but school is still in session meet some friends there. Its not hard.

But what if that person was home-schooled? >_<

[noob007]

Have you always been homeschooled?

I've moved to a whole different country, with different languages, styles, fads, etc. twice in my life. Since I'm pretty sure we're all teenagers here, what I think is most important in this age group is a good school. Really. By good school I also mean that you surround yourself with the right people. You need to go to places where it's likely to find others with similar interests as you, or may just be entertaining. You may not be able to change where you go to school and such, but that's my advice.